I know this wont last long to the very end.. but I just wanted it to last longer...
Mayb u had started to annoyed by me.. Mayb u had started to slowly ignore me.. Mayb u wanted me to slowly fade away from you so that I wont be that hurt..
Ya I know... but I just wont care..
I called you.. I text-ed you.. I messenger you.. I find you..
all because I MISS YOU !
Do you know that ..you really miss someone when the person is right beside you but you just cant love her...
I know I am stupid.. but I will love you till the end.. even I know you are impossible to love me..
If you miss someone.. That person must be very important to you..
We just need a second to like someone.. We just need a day to love someone...
but...
to forgot someone .. we need to take forever..
You told me I think too much.. You told me I am still not known you well... You told me I am cheated by your mask.. You told me I am not worth to go with you..
maybe I am naive .. But you can never cheated my feeling towards you... I can feel the truth of you its not what u describe to me..
I know.. I am late to be appear in your life.. I will not request anything anymore..
I just hope you don't treat me as a stranger in future..
remember the first day of the semester.. the light that shine from u has warmed my heart... I was going to greet u... but u seems busy talking on phone I missed a chance..
last week ... saw u going into the library to return books... purposely wait at outside just to greet u.. and u was on call again ... without noticing me and pass by...
but this time... I had different feeling... she seems like doing it purposely... because... I noticed her had noticed me before she went into library.....
opportunity given but there is no chance ... Good Luck bah .. ONZE !
those day already a past.... somehow... the memory will always flashed by and i will smile.. appear in wrong timing, wrong place and wrong space had no fate with you ... u had awake me from my immature lifestyle... i know more clear what path should i go for... and i will still miss u like ever before ;) ga yao for you exam and your boyfriend =)
i still remember your smile ... and will last forever =)
Love songs is getting more and more.... why does this happen ... ? because lovelorn people is increasing... they use love song as a way to speak out..
love is too fragile... broken-heart people is everywhere... where there is no people comfort u . we would rather to find a song to spend through...
When we sad... we can listen to love songs the rhythm will drive away your loss...
When we lonely... we can listen to love songs the desperate singing brings happiness.. Aesthetic rhythm can drive away sadness... because .... this feels really good...
Men .. les we admit it.. we always looking for our girlfriend is for us to be her first one... We always wanted the girl or women to be pure and virgin ... The feeling of being the first one into a woman's life ... just like ... hmm "owning and riding a brand new car ? ".
On the other hand... Women.... they are more sensitive towards love and romance. Most are more patient and doesnt mind being the first, second , third , or so on ... and on ... For their partners.... as long as they are the last love of their partner's life ...
You dont love a women because she s beautiful, bu she is beautiful because you love her.
3 happiness
something to do, something to love, something to care for.
Its weird .... when u know something great is going to end but u still wanna to hold on for little while.. just for one more second, just so ... it can hurt you a little more....
you never get a clap with 1 side of your hand...
and
i got your message
all the best with your IR preparation ... good luck friend forever ....
sometimes the human behavior is unreasonable.. we will waiting something that are not going to happen ... we will hope for something that are not going to come we will tolerate something are not out of aspect...without limit. we cant easy request from other to do the same way like us.. we just can sacrifice before we request from other..
but..
in the world... "fair" is the noun only will appear in sometimes... but not everytime.. when we cant get the same feedback from others, alots of the emotional will appear in the end ... as many as the star in the sky.. only the time is able to clean up all those complicated emotional ....
We asked why ?? sometime...
but we may not get the answer easy... what we can do ? is to wait... the right time to get the right way... i just notice i had make a mistake in my own chapter....
have a limited ability to get close with you.. the end i still standing the same place staring on you.. try hard..but its not so working.. day after day.. i have no idea to work it out.. let the time say the truth.. i will facing it...hugging it...and accept it.
2009 is going to end soon .... i realize that time never wait for us ... :) * whos donno your mom is girl ? *
It was hard to describe my feeling now ... There is things i regret... There is things i missed... There is things i failed... There is things i not dare to ... There is things i fear... There is things i never speak ... There is also things i never blog it out...
I always do things seriously but i sometimes look like i was just kidding ....i just hate those tension environment .... heh ...
There is a time i wan hoping for TIME TRAVEL MACHINE ... but somehow... it is useless to go back to change the history... once its happen .. it happen ! If i had a chance to back to the time i wan and change the result....now I wont do that anymore... The feeling is just difference ...even if u success change the history Mayb for me... i will appreciate that moment.... either bitter or sweet memories... or u can say... It is like u making an U-turn ... and went b to the bushes and lost your way again to the same bushes. lucky hor .... there is no TIME TRAVEL MACHINE in this world... heh..
sometimes... we had to belief in destiny and fate... there is alot things happen ..... to think b what i has been bein thru ... it was like a message from god... for me to stop.... silly... :) It wont slow me down ..... but i will not put myself into box anymore ^^ les wait for 2010 !~ tml going to countdown with ma friend :) if there is fate... we will meet again ...
ALL THE BEST There will surely a better 2o1o u wont bummed out ^^
She can't see the way your eyes will light up when you smile She never noticed how you stop and stare whenever she walks by And you can't see me wanting you the way you want her But you are everything to me
And I just want to show you, she don't even know you She's never gonna love you like I want to And you just see right through me but if you only knew me We could be a beautiful miracle, unbelievable Instead of just invisible, yeah
There's a fire inside of you that can't help but shine through But she's never gonna see the light, no matter what you do And all I think about is how to make you think of me And everything that we could be
And I just want show you, she don't even know you She's never gonna love you like I want to And you just see right through me but if you only knew me We could be a beautiful miracle, unbelievable Instead of just invisible
Like shadows in the faded light, oh, we're invisible I just wanna open your eyes and make you realize
And I just want to show you, she don't even know you Baby, let me love you, let me want you You just see right through me but if you only knew me We could be a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable Instead of just invisible, oh, yeah
She can't see the way your eyes will light up when you smile
if i say nothing ... do u believe ? u can said i have already used to it....
Today visited my niece yea my niece! =J I am an uncle now ..... HAHA
Those feeling ... really hard to describe ...
The Family Tree of mine is happily growing bigger and bigger :) I still remember when i was age of 12 ... MY family trip of mine.. we just need 3 cars .. now.. we need more than 10 cars ... Unbelievable .. :D My big cousin finally become a daddy now ... haha he used to be playfull all the time . I think non of his toy is better than his angel now .. he was so EXCITED ! and u can see him keep smiling and laughin all the time ! the eye contact with him and his baby ... really.. really.. warm.. tiny little things will make him happy now.. today he show us a little fan to us .. and keep ask us " cute mou ? cute mou ? " " cute le , cute le " is actually a little fan attach to babychair to keep the hot away from baby HAHA... U think that he is silly but sometimes u wont know when u havent experience it before :) mayb u will be more crazy le ..
today suppose to have lots of assignment and lab report to settle... i have no time for sunday school ... :( but when i saw her.. i forgot everythings about that... she was sleeping quitely . while i looking at her face.. i was stressfree !~ LOL ... tiny little movement of her.. makes my heartbeat fast.. kinda weird and i donno why.. but i love the feeling ..xoxo
I curi curi snap a pic of her while she sleeping :)
baby guai a... " fai gou jeong dai " ~~
It has been said that we need just three things in life: Something to do, Something to look forward to And someone to love
Can you remember a time when you felt happy and excited? Can you remember a time when you felt powerful and energetic?
If you can, then you can HAVE THESE FEELINGS ANY TIME YOU WANT THEM. Most people don’t use their memories to help them feel good because they say, “Well, that’s not really how I’m feeling; I’m just imagining it.” Well, I have news for you: You’re ALWAYS just imagining it. You might as well imagine it at times when you need it instead of having it happen on accident!
Here’s how to apply this idea:
Write down three states that you’d like to be able to put yourself into anytime you’d like. Then, write down three times in your life when you felt each of those states. Finally, close your eyes and put yourself into each of the three situations that made you feel the state that you want. Also, do SOMETHING UNIQUE with your body as you’re remembering. For instance, if you’d like to feel powerful and confident, while you’re remembering times when you felt this way, breathe out quickly while puckering your lips.
If you do this process of remembering the states and exhaling quickly at the same time, all you have to do in the future is close your eyes, breathe out quickly while remembering the feelings, and you’ll have the states that you want. It’s like having a ‘push’ button for feeling good about yourself.
lil tips for u to stay away from your young and unstable mood ya :)
In fact... this words.... i first heard from one of my friend's church during her church anniversary... by a lovely Pastor " everything happens for purpose "
1 of my course mate just passed away...* my condolence to him * he victim of the tragic accident ... his motorbike bein sandwiched by two cars...
i remember that day... i was on the way to college... i drive my car... and there is a traffic jam and i saw there was accident.. a boy laying on the road ..waiting for ambulance.. i didnt bother much .. so i just drive thru to avoid more traffic ... yes.. it is him ... laying on the ground that time.. and i just passed by my coursemate that time... i was so sad to know about it... and it is too late..
he is just 21 years old... LIFE is really SHORT ! thats true.. i wondering... if someday i passed by and the 1 laying on floor is the 1 really close to me.... i just cant accept it.
but somehow it really happen .. but why ?
so that u can learn from it, therefor u can overcome it in the future * thx Benu have answered me that day*
MAKE EVERYDAY COUNT! appreciate every moment and take from it everything that we possibly can..
Well you know those times When you feel like there's a sign there on your back Says I don't mind if ya kick me Seems like everybody has Things go from bad to worse You'd think they can't get worse than that And then they do
You step off the straight and narrow And you don't know where you are Use the needle of your compass To sew up your broken heart Ask directions from a genie In a bottle of Jim Beam And she lies to you That's when you learn the truth
If you're going through hell Keep on going, don't slow down If you're scared, don't show it You might get out Before the devil even knows you're there
Well I been deep down in that darkness I been down to my last match Felt a hundred different demons Breathing fire down my back And I knew that if I stumbled I'd fall right into the trap that they were laying, yeah
But the good news Is there's angels everywhere out on the street Holding out a hand to pull you back up on your feet The one's that you've been dragginig for so long You're on your knees You maight as well be praying Guess what I'm saying
If your going through hell Keep on going, don't slow down If you're scared don't show it You might get out Before the devil even knows you're there
Yeah, If you're going through hell Keep on moving, face that fire Walk right through it You might get out Before the devil even knows you're there
If you're going through hell Keep on going, don't slow down If you're scared don't show it You might get out Before the devil even knows you're there
Yeah, If you're going through hell Keep on moving, face that fire Walk right through it You might get out Before the devil even knows you're there Yeah, you might get out Before the devil even knows you're there.
1st time .. putting my effort for the present.. 1st time .. using the software for editing the clip .. 1st time .. so paiseh watched by every1 during the recording at the mall .. 1st time .. meet u in person .. 1st time .. talk to u .. 1st time .. see your smile .. 1st time .. wish you happy birthday that night .
that few minutes u gave me .. really alot to me .. if there is any joker .. i think everything above will be just remain a dream ... thx god i still make it in time that night ...
i did not hope to get anything from u ... but i did get what i want from u ... a big smile of yours.. its shine me alot ..
my heart is bumping faster than usual .. its weird i cant control it at all..
i dont know what is the ranking of my present in your heart... but i do my best to give u an unforgettable memory ... hope u like it =)
