31/12/2009

2009 is going to end soon ....
i realize that time never wait for us ... :) * whos donno your mom is girl ? *

It was hard to describe my feeling now ...
There is things i regret...
There is things i missed...
There is things i failed...
There is things i not dare to ...
There is things i fear...
There is things i never speak ...
There is also things i never blog it out...

I always do things seriously but i sometimes look like i was just kidding ....i just hate those tension environment .... heh ...

There is a time i wan hoping for TIME TRAVEL MACHINE ...
but somehow...
it is useless to go back to change the history...
once its happen ..
it happen !
If i had a chance to back to the time i wan and change the result....now I wont do that anymore...
The feeling is just difference ...even if u success change the history
Mayb for me... i will appreciate that moment.... either bitter or sweet memories...
or u can say...
It is like u making an U-turn ...
and went b to the bushes and lost your way again to the same bushes.
lucky hor .... there is no TIME TRAVEL MACHINE in this world... heh..

sometimes... we had to belief in destiny and fate...
there is alot things happen .....
to think b what i has been bein thru ...
it was like a message from god...
for me to stop....
silly... :)
It wont slow me down .....
but i will not put myself into box anymore ^^
les wait for 2010 !~
tml going to countdown with ma friend :)
if there is fate...
we will meet again ...











ALL THE BEST
There will surely a better 2o1o
u wont bummed out ^^

Owwww kayyyyy

i am ...




form your eye ...








She can't see the way your eyes will light up when you smile
She never noticed how you stop and stare whenever she walks by
And you can't see me wanting you the way you want her
But you are everything to me

And I just want to show you, she don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible, yeah

There's a fire inside of you that can't help but shine through
But she's never gonna see the light, no matter what you do
And all I think about is how to make you think of me
And everything that we could be

And I just want show you, she don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible

Like shadows in the faded light, oh, we're invisible
I just wanna open your eyes and make you realize

And I just want to show you, she don't even know you
Baby, let me love you, let me want you
You just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible, oh, yeah

She can't see the way your eyes will light up when you smile











if i say nothing ...
do u believe ?
u can said i have already used to it....

make you feel my love

An Angel

Today visited my niece
yea my niece! =J
I am an uncle now ..... HAHA

Those feeling ... really hard to describe ...

The Family Tree of mine is happily growing bigger and bigger :)
I still remember when i was age of 12 ...
MY family trip of mine..
we just need 3 cars ..
now..
we need more than 10 cars ...
Unbelievable .. :D
My big cousin finally become a daddy now ...
haha he used to be playfull all the time .
I think non of his toy is better than his angel now ..
he was so EXCITED !
and u can see him keep smiling and laughin all the time !
the eye contact with him and his baby ...
really..
really..
warm..
tiny little things will make him happy now..
today he show us a little fan to us ..
and keep ask us " cute mou ? cute mou ? "
" cute le , cute le "
is actually a little fan attach to babychair to keep the hot away from baby
HAHA...
U think that he is silly
but sometimes u wont know when u havent experience it before :)
mayb u will be more crazy le ..

today suppose to have lots of assignment and lab report to settle...
i have no time for sunday school ... :(
but when i saw her..
i forgot everythings about that...
she was sleeping quitely .
while i looking at her face..
i was stressfree !~
LOL ...
tiny little movement of her..
makes my heartbeat fast..
kinda weird and i donno why..
but i love the feeling ..xoxo

I curi curi snap a pic of her while she sleeping :)



baby guai a... " fai gou jeong dai " ~~










It has been said that we need just three things in life:
Something to do,
Something to look forward to
And someone to love

Internal States

Can you remember a time when you felt happy and
excited?
Can you remember a time when you felt powerful and
energetic?

If you can, then you can HAVE THESE FEELINGS ANY
TIME YOU WANT THEM. Most people don’t use their
memories to help them feel good because they say,
“Well, that’s not really how I’m feeling; I’m just imagining
it.” Well, I have news for you: You’re ALWAYS just
imagining it. You might as well imagine it at times when
you need it instead of having it happen on accident!


Here’s how to apply this idea:

Write down three states that you’d like to be able to
put yourself into anytime you’d like. Then, write down
three times in your life when you felt each of those
states. Finally, close your eyes and put yourself into each
of the three situations that made you feel the state that
you want. Also, do SOMETHING UNIQUE with your body
as you’re remembering. For instance, if you’d like to feel
powerful and confident, while you’re remembering times
when you felt this way, breathe out quickly while
puckering your lips.

If you do this process of remembering the states and
exhaling quickly at the same time, all you have to do in
the future is close your eyes, breathe out quickly while
remembering the feelings, and you’ll have the states that
you want. It’s like having a ‘push’ button for feeling good
about yourself.





lil tips for u to stay away from your
young and unstable mood ya :)

everything happens for purpose????

In fact... this words.... i first heard from one of my friend's church during her church anniversary... by a lovely Pastor " everything happens for purpose "

1 of my course mate just passed away...* my condolence to him *
he victim of the tragic accident ...
his motorbike bein sandwiched by two cars...

i remember that day...
i was on the way to college...
i drive my car... and there is a traffic jam
and i saw there was accident.. a boy laying on the road ..waiting for ambulance..
i didnt bother much ..
so i just drive thru to avoid more traffic ...
yes..
it is him ... laying on the ground that time..
and i just passed by my coursemate that time...
i was so sad to know about it...
and it is too late..

he is just 21 years old...
LIFE is really SHORT !
thats true..
i wondering... if someday i passed by and the 1 laying on floor is the 1 really close to me....
i just cant accept it.

but somehow it really happen ..
but why ?

so that u can learn from it, therefor u can overcome it in the future * thx Ben u have answered me that day*

MAKE EVERYDAY COUNT!
appreciate every moment and take from it everything that we possibly can..

Yay right !~

Rodney Atkins - If You're Going Through Hell

Well you know those times
When you feel like there's a sign there on your back
Says I don't mind if ya kick me
Seems like everybody has
Things go from bad to worse
You'd think they can't get worse than that
And then they do

You step off the straight and narrow
And you don't know where you are
Use the needle of your compass
To sew up your broken heart
Ask directions from a genie
In a bottle of Jim Beam
And she lies to you
That's when you learn the truth

If you're going through hell
Keep on going, don't slow down
If you're scared, don't show it
You might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there

Well I been deep down in that darkness
I been down to my last match
Felt a hundred different demons
Breathing fire down my back
And I knew that if I stumbled
I'd fall right into the trap that they were laying, yeah

But the good news
Is there's angels everywhere out on the street
Holding out a hand to pull you back up on your feet
The one's that you've been dragginig for so long
You're on your knees
You maight as well be praying
Guess what I'm saying

If your going through hell
Keep on going, don't slow down
If you're scared don't show it
You might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there

Yeah, If you're going through hell
Keep on moving, face that fire
Walk right through it
You might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there

If you're going through hell
Keep on going, don't slow down
If you're scared don't show it
You might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there

Yeah, If you're going through hell
Keep on moving, face that fire
Walk right through it
You might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there
Yeah, you might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there.












Happy Holiday to you :)

The different between promise and memories

Beverly Craven - Promise me
-------------------------------










Broken promise is source of a bad memories
Promise : We break them ...
Memories : They break us ...

081009

That day had become my special day in my life...

that night unforgettable for me ..

thats alot 1st time for me during the period ..

I ..

1st time .. putting my effort for the present..
1st time .. using the software for editing the clip ..
1st time .. so paiseh watched by every1 during the recording at the mall ..
1st time .. meet u in person ..
1st time .. talk to u ..
1st time .. see your smile ..
1st time .. wish you happy birthday that night .

that few minutes u gave me .. really alot to me ..
if there is any joker .. i think everything above will be just remain a dream ...
thx god i still make it in time that night ...

i did not hope to get anything from u ...
but i did get what i want from u ...
a big smile of yours..
its shine me alot ..



my heart is bumping faster than usual ..
its weird
i cant control it at all..

i dont know what is the ranking of my present in your heart...
but i do my best to give u an unforgettable memory ...
hope u like it =)











A smile from u is worth everything..

凌晨三點鐘

Clock is ticking...
time has come
near the corner

unable to sleep...
my head is full of ...
if
if
if if IF IF IF IF IF IF IF IF IF
IFIFIFIFIFFIFIFIFIFIFIFIFIFIFIF
IIIIIIIIIFFFFFFFFFFFFF

i cant stop it once i close my eye ...
i cant control it ..



listen to the song..



















ているあなたはまだ不安？

B.B

*snap during my rest :P*

yesterday
went to Basket Ball with my sifu :D
it has been ancient .. i didnt train and touch the ball ..
I love sports ^^
but now lack of training !!!
i cant even survived 4 matchs !!
sound weak ? ... really i am ><" sifu say.. after 2 match .. punchat jor .. =.=" another 2 match K.O jor .. LOL... inside the match 4 of them are malaysia team .. 2 are KL team .. and 2 free lancer... * my sifu and me *
we didnt lost alot marks also ma :P *but still lose la *



something funny happen on the way b home ...

on the way to the car *
Me: eh the ball lea ? take jor mei ?
sifu : no lar they take b jor .
Me: owww kay .
sifu: les buy drinks.

and we went b .....

at msn *

sifu has sent your a nudge !
sifu : DIU lo !
me : huh ?
sifu : They think we bring b the ball , WE think that they bring b the ball !
me : HAHAHAH ...that y i ask u the ball ma ...

GG...


actually nothing de la ... just a ball .. they have alot .. just this is funny !!

* Sifu u forgot your " BALL " lea ! *

XOXO








the clock is ticking ...

Done!!~

Finally....
the exam end =)
i know i will get a REAL bad result ...
Well .. its all over... what ever la !
Sleep for almos 36 hours... haha ...
its real GOOOD !! to have a nice sleeep ~~!
just like paradise ... ^.^V
cover with my dirty little blanket ... it sure miss me :P


Friends... paiseh for my absent...
i really not that likes to clubbing..
Not the alcohol ... but the environment =\
Next time find u all go yam cha !! i treat ~ keke


Going to do something healthy ....
Im not going to stay at home.. act zombie for this two weeks...
planning to go Broga Hill , Semenyih ..
Gonna train now :D
if not how to climb oo ...
KK Mont. for next year will be a dream then .. ;P
nvm .. untie also can reach the summit ... i wont lose !~ =X


I felt U was not in mood this few days...
mayb someone bother you again ..
or mayb exam ..
whateva it is .. remember to be happy always ...
Its your promise to me !
smiles =)



Sometimes u cannot believe wat u see.
You have to believe wat you feel.

Tear

A drop of tear..
suddenly drops from my eye..
had made the same mistake twice ...
this mistakes...
added extra burden to me...
i did not cry...
i am not sad...
i am not complaining ...
but i am scare...
i am now.... wondering...
" did i choose the wrong path ? "
" am i in the correct direction ? "
" can i keep going ?? "


An old friend told me... don't look at the world through a key chain ...
every problem is small .. its just you look at it with a key chain ....which make your sight covered by all the problems..
If u thrown the key chain away.. then u will figured it out justn how small is the problem .
we shouldnt because of the small problem and we give up that easily.


A good friend told me ... its part of my life.. u will be tough..

some friend told me... jia you...


Thanks Q ! all ~




i am lazy to talk ...
my brain has stuck...
currently i manage to get only 2 hours each day to take a nap ...
it had been 2 weeks..i am energy less...
i have alots of things in my mind...




i am stupid !



YES i am indeed UNHAPPY NOW
but only for today..
i wont let it stay forever..
i still need to cheer U up ..




i am going to have a big rest for today...
in order to go further and clear all the obstacles along my path ..
bye...

ODD night

This world...
the complicated things for me.. not about physics calculation ...
not the formula Maths i needed to memorize...
but .. it is
the relationship between people...
Why say so ??
because...
although i able to do well in all theory and formula by myself but yet..
i cant make sure i had a good relationship with everyone i care myself..
there is no point... at all..
The real value of one relationship needs two way to communicate to impress more colours in the sky.


I always remind myself in this world..
everyone on this earth is unique and different...
there are thousand way to get close with someone...
but the only way i know to reach the destination is using my heart to care for anyone i care and i mind..


till this moment..
I am glad I'm still in this condition...
but i found that when you put the effort in something...
but then u feel u bein ignored..
the feeling actually is not so good..
proper way to say is worst...


but i understand !
we cant request anyone give the same feedback to us or have a same idea and direction with us..
so we just can only make sure what we did was what we were willing to do so ..
and NO any excuse to REGRET...

This few days...
I thinks alot..
and I realize that..
when you bein ignored..
you will feel uncomfortable..
but u wont FELT sad ..
you passed your day as usual ..
just.. every moment of it you can feel that in your heart there was something went wrong..
you cant spill it out.. but you can feel it.
What we can do is ... wait .. waIT .. and WAIT for the time to overcome it..
I can still smile.. but issit a fake one ? I don't know..
I can stop to miss you... but can I ? I don't know...
What can i do ...
Is make sure you in the good condition..
Then i will feel more ease " an xin " .









There is only one thing i request from u ...
I hope tomorrow you will be happy than today !
Because Love ... I will protect you all the time

Second time......

I had been born to this lovely world...
There is a best feeling i ever had which is .. looking at my family member happly with smile when i did something for them..
those smile was priceless to me..
it is one of the main source in my life.
but...
this few month..
I can feel the same happiness came from U...
When U smile =) ...
When u Laugh =D ...
its so awesome to me....
I have no idea..
why ?
I will feel the warm and sweet from there...
and
This feeling will be addicted..
donno when it started..
makes U happy become my hobby in my life...
When i know U need something , U want something or U hope something...
I just wish I can fulfill you ..
I am just a small portion of sand in this world...
or maybe.. 1 of the star of billions in the sky...
but
I just hope i can use all my ability to make sure U in a good condition ...

Remember the night when I know I will meet U up ..
I have no idea.. Why am I so nervous..
GAN JEONG O !!!!
Donno why like that...
Can you tell me ??
or
Do u feel the same as me ?


My friend told me ...
in this world... nothing will be perfect..
becoz there always have a BAD JOKER will spoil the plan...
and
Unexpected this time... the JOKER had visited me =.=
I failed to meet you up again ...
when the moment U told me,
I can hardly control my EQ...but i still manage to overcome it..
I just feel a bit disappointed and down ...
something like ...
U see the rainbow in the sky and sudden black cloud appear come with heavy rain...
but
I still will cheer up..
Bcoz I know I need to get prepare for the the next chance we meet up !
God give me 4 chances to get your contact...
I will wait for another chance to meet you up ...
If make you happy and take care of you is a burden in life,
then i'm sure this will be the sweetest burden in my life.
and
I'm sure this will be the main component in my near future..
















I just bought another " xiao bai "
wanna introduce it to u d ...
I thought " xiao bai " will stay overnight in your room ... and taking care by U for few days..
but unfortunately it still .. in front of me ... xiao bai is upset and LAME ..
hope to see the happiness with you thru xiao bai
and xiao bai hope to give you a colorful week in this holidays...















u r my last thought at night..
Goodnight.

Just... if ..

If I had one wish.
If one desire would come true.
If I had one wish.
My wish would be you.

I'll start with a list.
of everything I love.
and your names at the top.
with the tittle above.







The very ground you stand on.
Is where between heaven and earth.

Words can never hope to explain.
The feelings I keep inside.


There must be some mistake.
I am not worthy of such a gift.
Whenever your appearance.
My soul begins to drift.

There were clear blue skies.
And sapphire blue ponds.
But all i saw was rain coming down.
Till there was you.

I wrote your name in the sky.

Don't ask when, don't as why.
I missed a face with a smile.
A unique voice of single style.


I have always dreamed of the sky.
But I was born with broken wings.

The closest I can hope to get.
Is the feeling your smile brings.




So I wished upon the star.

The star that reminded me most of you.
My actions seemed bizarre.
But this wish I had to pursue.


If I had one wish.
My wish would be you.
And since I made that wish.
My wish has to come true...















My wish isn't to mean everything to everyone but something to someone..

Don't know better than known

I do believe ....
What can u do !
If god let u know everything but u cant do anything ???
isn't it bad ?
sometime we need to pretend we dont know...
not to be dishonest..
but to survive in this cruel world...








I m suffering from illness for the past few days.....
no energy to wake up from bed at all ...
39 degree fever...
need a good good rest now ...
dun think so much ...
nothing can bother me to keep climbing ..
nothing can stop me from charging onwards..
miracle to unbelievable
its just a route
shortcut or long-run
depends which route you choose ...
everything is just up to u ...








Tired..,
exam is at the corner once again ..
this time really stressie ..
hopefully not that bad result ..







we don't know what we've got until we lose it,
we don't know what we've been missing until it arrive .

Just.. touch my heart...

She Amaze me !!
best TEEN singer !!!
Taylor Alison Swift

Love every single of her song ^^

but this is ..one of the song i believe in ....






Taylor Swift - Change lyrics

And it’s a sad picture, the final blow hits you
Somebody else gets what you wanted again and
You know it’s all the same, another time and place
Repeating history and you’re getting sick of it
But I believe in whatever you do
And I’ll do anything to see it through

Because these things will change
Do you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
This revolution, the time will come
For us to finally win
We sing hallelujah, we sing hallelujah

So we’ve been outnumbered
Raided and now cornered
It’s hard to fight when the fight ain’t fair
We’re getting stronger now
Find things they never found
They might be bigger
But we’re faster and never scared
You can walk away, say we don’t need this
But there’s something in your eyes
Says we can beat this

Because these things will change
Do you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
This revolution, the time will come
For us to finally win
We sing hallelujah, we sing hallelujah

Tonight we stand, get off our knees
Fight for what we’ve worked for all these years
And the battle was long, it’s the fight of our lives
But we’ll stand up champions tonight

It was the night things changed
Do you see it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back fell down
It’s a revolution, throw your hands up
Cause we never gave in
And we sang hallelujah, we sang hallelujah
Hallelujah















Between the wishes and the thing life
lies Waiting.

今夜

闷闷的....无聊的....漫不经心....说不出的郁闷....
种种的预兆....让我感到一丝丝的无助，原来到了现在才明白这么一种的感觉叫不称心
不是太难过, 不是太悲伤!
而是连自己也找不到可以难过的原因
人生的道路上，不是任何的事物可以让我们任性的掌握.
而这一次又再一次的感觉到这熟悉的情绪,

不称心是因为我们不能说出任何改变事情的原因,
不能说，
不能做，
更不能问.

又再一次让它收在那蓝蓝的天空中
好想...
好想...
好想甩掉这感觉.

但是我更明白它会隐藏在空气里，时时刻刻的提醒着我
仿佛害怕我忘记了，我的无助感只会随着时间慢慢的膨胀
唯一可以让自己看开，就是紧握着双手，祈祷和耐心的等待
有时我也发现，等待其实也是一种行动
而这种静态的行动所付出的毅力远比所有的行动来的强
当我习惯了妳的存在，我也习惯了不称心的对待...















English is just hard to express my current feeling ...
TQ for helping me translate it from my mouth to words ..

Love without talking

U need to be patient * this video have no dialogue between them :)*

and it touch me ...

U will smile while watching the video * yes! i did *

take your time =)






























Which part do you feel is the climax ??




personally I like the part where the girl shown ... " I am watching you first "

36 hours....

NO sleep =.= Zzzzzzzzz

tired......

very tired ......

very very tired......

and all the hardwork ...

just washes away....

cant claim back ...

still ...

need to go for 2nd interview....

thanks to the old man math lecturer....

really a waste of time ....

then ...

when to JPJ...

kena their aduan saman last week...

but there is a couple.....

delayed my report ....

they keep on arguing with the JPJ officer there....

like pasar malam ...

come on ! if u didn't do anything illegal they wont send u SAMAN....

what to argue there ?...

admit it la ...

stupid..

waited for them 3 hours.....

really makes me tired....

finally my turn ...

i didnt argue...

just admit it..

because..

i was really break the rules that day...

and...

my license expired liao ...

i didnt notice it ...

i was like ...

WTH ? siao liao ...

lucky the officer willing to help me ....

asked my friend to become my car driver...

so he kena my saman ...

but i pay for that saman la ...

REALLY thank you ...

I am really tired...

i cant even walk straight line ...

but i never forgot you ....

even thou i have no time to think others things today...

tml need to go JPJ again ....

renew license this time....

haiz...

just a random post here...

i am lazy to talk ...

so i write it here....

good night all ...

cheers ya =)

























Every week 6 days... really exhausting
Dun forgot to take your time to relax...

10 things I HEARTS

Its kinda exhausted today..
I was so busy preparing my college things..
It took me whole Sunday to done only small portion of it ><"


But still ....this is YEAR 2009 Happiest WEEK I had ever been ^^


I went to Rawang today ..
nothing but to accompany my friend to send something important there...
after that I sent him back home..


passing by the pinkie tower..



In my mind....
It was like ...
a long distance but not as far as sky...
a short distance but not as near as land...
just like you standing in front of me ..
but I never know where was you.





Wish not to disturb your bed time ..
I cant cheat my heart ...
so I called you.




even it is 1 sec I can hear a sweet voice from you
I fell that...
I m happy ,
I m glad..
I am the luckiest man in life.








10 things I HEARTS

MSN because it is the place i can meet u, cheer u up.

CS ML because is the palace in my heart.

Balcony because it lead me to my miracle.

My Blog because i can let u know what is inside my heart.

Your Blog because i can know what is inside your heart.

Library because i always guai guai wait there for your arrival.

Weekdays because the days I always think about you .

Weekends because the only days I can chat with you .

23/7/09 because I get all the magical numbers from you.

27/7/09 because I had improve a lil bit.. thx for being my coach =)

Look at the sun, you see time
Look in heart , you see love
Look in eyes, you see life
Look at your mobile , you see who's thinking of you
Its me. =)

B L

24/7/09
Its not an ordinary day for me ..
43 days ago ...
I still can remember that night i just get 1 magical number...
I m imaging when can I get all the magical numbers ..
43 days later...
and the dream is come true tonight ..
I cant explain to you all
how much stun i eaten when i see the numbers
Its more abnormal than anything I have been over before...
Thanks to you..
because of believe me and willing share with me
Thanks to Jesus..
Finally u hear i blessing every single night..
maybe its just a little step in the story..
But i know the rainbow is appear in the sky...
just need to cross over the distance to meet up you














But ...

tonight i realize one more thing....
my hand is more talkative than my mouth.

I m totally blank...
I m totally noob ...
I m totally a dumb...
I m SO GAN JEONG ~~~ ><"
I even cant believe I say XIE XIE to you ... for what?!?!
YAM GONG .... =.=!!
but i know in one of the day i will used to it ..
to talk more well with you..
This first exp is worst .. worst... and WORST..
this is because lack of training..
and will you become the coach to train me up ? :)
I wish it may come true..




P/S
I have 1o things important to do tomorrow

1. buy a Digi number
2. buy a Digi number
3. buy a Digi number
4. buy a Digi number
5. buy a Digi number
6. buy a Digi number
7. buy a Digi number
8. buy a Digi number
9. buy a Digi number
10.buy a Digi number

























I wish I can walk out from the screen... and share the joy with you all the time..

TEN

Yesterday you was so happy * i can feel it * =)
Although there is only once a week for me to have a chat with u ...
I am still happy :)
I have no idea how silly is me ...
I actually kinda regret to ask another 10 minutes from u yesterday

mayb

if i didnt ask you to give me another 10 minutes for today ..
u wont appear ..
and
u wont so blue ><"
I really have no idea what had happen to you ...
You say that was a long long story.. and its complicated...
I can feel that u was sad to explain the same thing.....
because each time u repeat it ..
u will suffer it once more So that i stop asking it from u .. *although i really hope to know what happened *
i dont know what the story behind
i cant help much.
what i can do is
support you to the max in my heart ..


TEN words to cheers YOU up

Blessing - Everytime you turn around I'll keep blessing you
Laughing -to forgot the sad moments
Ice-cream -for you to remember all your sweet moments
Miracle - is always there for you
It - is nothing but a task from god
Smile -is to motivating your happiness
Sagging - is useless but to fight back!
Yell -to give a loud sharp cries as of pain
Onze - is always here
U - will always have a stupid boy there for you

This song dedicate to you


















P/s
9474 86 733 968 259297 7645464 84373

2

digit 2...
what that ??
2 ringgit ??
nope.....
2 is the magical digit to make me more close with u
the 2nd hard time I try my heart to get it from u.

I am damn worry I make a mistake in each word I speak out to u.
GAN JIONG !!!
lucky
I get it..


my friend say why u wanna so torturing yourself
but I think maybe this one is a different picture in our own chapter
I m not mind...
step by step toward the aim...
the feeling is good..
at least improve abit is better than nothing improve
ur smile will be the best medicine to heal my soul.


First of all.....
Thank you ...
because believe me...
some of them may say to me "she might give you fake one ."
but since I wanna ask u , I will not bother izzit fake or true.
because if I do so ...
it show disrespect to u and the effort I had put



u say that I sometime used words that too deep and u can barely understand..
then next time if I just ask for other digits like that...
I feel myself not so sincere...
even a every little thing
I hope can special it for u


haha...
god bless..
the 3rd time I asking u will coming soon ...

I wish
I bless
I hope


















there are another 4 more digit to let u open the first chapter in our story..
even there is just 1 of 1000 percent,I know 1 day I will get it..










p/s
8447 96753 273283 63 47 86 6477 968

Yesterday..

My mood is not blue .. but BLACK...
I haven taken my small test...and .. i cant even finish all question on time .
Study so much but still cant do well ... =( * sad.. real.. sad *
I talk to myself... I will never let this happen again !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

while on the way back home...
TRAFFIC jam somemore ...
wasting my time on the stupid road for more than 1 hour zzzzz ...
called friend 1 by 1 to have a lil chat..
but no idea why..
all of them was busy... ><"
haiz... god wanna leave me alone ..
and stay inside the car mayb giving me a time or chance to calm down .









Lucky you was there =)

U was laughing , and laughing , and keep laughing ...
mayb it affected me ^^
my mood changes to Pink suddenly.*Thank you*

U say that u scare u kacau me ...
by asking alot of pointless question ??
but actually it is not ^^
I like the way you share and talk to me like no distance
really..















we are not finding a perfect person,
but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

Weekdays ...

Weekdays are really really bored ............................
going the same routing everyday... repeat repeat repeat... :(


hmm ...
really get used to college life again with bunch of new friends V^.^V

haha i starting to love my math lecturer as well .. he is a funny guy .. hahahahahaha i cant explain it why.. mayb we starting to get used to him .. enjoying in his lecturing now :) * but i still dun like math shhh..*

middle of the sems... alot test.. and assignment already .... kinda stress out sometimes..

this Friday will be a tough subject ... Fluid test ><" and till now havent study.. cham ... not I dun wanna make revision... but .. the Lab report is killing me ..... the time pass so fast........ last Friday is just like yesterday... good or bad lea ? depends on which angle u look gua... :) owh yea my untie brought us some Jelly sweet =D I almos finish it myself.. while doing the lab report LOL............... there are some pic I took while rushing my lab report ;)

sure all kid will lurv it till mad ! but gorgor almos eat all jo =D


alot animal shape =O


Rhino?















Please dun miss me ...
because
I will miss you .

10.10

10.10 pm ...
a silence time~~~
although the clock is showing me a smile face..


Its still so silence........
Why... ??
i have no idea...
mayb waiting for something ...?
So many things... flashing inside my mind....
Friend..
Family..
Exam..
Test..
Assignment..
Future..
Studies..
&
You.....


WELL..
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If it exists somewhere..
You already have it..
If you decided to stick to your way.
THROW OUT YOUR CHEST
and
RAISE YOUR HEAD !
*Thanks Nana*





















There is no point in comparing yourself with someone else
Because everyone has one's own measure.

习惯

Every Friday, Saturday and Sunday nite....
I have a special mission,
I can reject the date with buddy,
I can reject the game so call Dota..
I can stay at home even I feel boring ..
Coz i'm afraid to have u miss out in my msn list
and for sure.. I will eat white fruit some time .
everytime see u appear in list,
is more meaningful than kena loteri,
I love to see your name appear in my msn list.










Every time u appear in my list...
Blood pressure been raising..
Heart beat will increase dramatically fast..
Brain will become totally blank..
when feel u ignoring me ..
.

.

.

for sure u are not compulsory to accompany me
every single word u reply me..
will have a nut keep read it and think wanna reply what will much better.
honestly, reply ur message difficult than I sit for da exam.
but, I feel happy when u not ignore me .









Have someone tell me
that miracle is hiding in the air ..
U cant see it... u cant touch it ..
But u can feel it .
the way to feel it is use your heart to do everything u feel u deserve to do it without regret.
Im bless myself in the right way,
hope in the end of this way ...
I can meet u up and grow on .
even this feeling is dubious
but Im strong enough to bear all the ending..















One day one centimeter ... sure in the end I can climb over your wall.....
I will be the cherubim to heal you and light you up.

Letters show thousand meaning ....

O fan of white silk ,
Clear as frost ,
On the grass-blade,
you, also are laid aside .

-Erza Pound




well I think most of you will think this is .. * WHAT OO , mea lei ge?? *

let me elaborate for u ^^



O fan of white silk,

fan = ladies used the most and its a hand fan.
white = purity
silk = produce at China or Japan and ... normally ladies used silk and only from rich family

* There is a ladies who was purity and from rich family *

Clear as frost,

Frost = something frozen with crystal clear..

* see through her from a far distance *

on the grass-blade,

grass = green = serenity
blade = sharp = blood = hurting yourself..

* you will hurt yourself if u fall in her grass-blade *

you,also are laid aside,

laid aside = laid * past tense * = death

*even you will found death if fall in love with her *


Well... if the 4 line combine and we will complete our riddles

Oh , my highness , you are so pure. *O fan of white silk *

Looking at you at the coffin . * clear as frost* there is a glass on the coffin

buried in the ground and might get murdered . *on the grass-blade *

even she also will die alone. *you,also are laid aside *




the 4 sentences were reminder for us that

Life short and simple..

勇气

In ordinary life,
perhaps because of a picture or a song ,
the moment .. the invasion of memories has become not the same.


Today I know a new word..
I dunno how to describe
I try to check with dictionary
I can't find the word...
Finally I know ..
Its call blue


Blue is not just a colour
blue is a emo..
when you blue you dunno what you gonna to do ..
you cant escape it , coz it is wide like the sky,
you cant forget it , coz brain will keep remind you,
the last thing you can do .. is to accept it .


I'm no idea why the picture will appear..
I'm no idea why I will become so blue after saw the picture ....
but
I know I cant continue in this way..
because I cant lost my pink to cheer you up
and I know I wont use the same way to revenge other..
Because
for me , I will never use YOU as a tool..
And I know..
in jj-urbanboy world ..
nothing will damage me to give up my strength toward you
in a coincident I have meet you... just like now I listen this song ..
It cheer me up
It give me the believe that I'm in the right way.
I meet my own rainbow in this song..
and I know u will in that side of the rainbow


now not the right time..
and I believe the right time is coming soon ...
Thanks God


张震岳-小宇


歌曲：小宇
歌手：张震岳 专辑：ok

总有些惊奇的际遇
比方说当我遇见你
你那双温柔莹剔透的眼睛
出现在我梦里
我的爱就像一片云
在你的天空无处停
多渴望化成阵阵的小雨
滋润你心中的土地
不管未来会怎麽样
至少我们现在很开心
不管结局会怎麽样
至少想念的人是你
我不会把它当作游戏
因为我真心对你
总有些话是不能提
怕你会掉入选择题
我把情感自私的那一面
隐藏在黑夜里
我的爱就像一片舟
在你的心湖无处停
寻寻觅觅一个美丽的港湾
希望不再流浪漂荡
我不管未来会怎麽样
但我每天都想见到你
我不管结局会怎麽样
我想真的跟你在一起
如果你还是没法相信
真的没关系我会安静的离去




Jesus please shorten the period of time I needed to wait..

Father

Family ..... mean ..
Father And Mother I Love You

Father stands in front ...
Father's day is coming tml ...
but I cant celebrate with you ... coz you are not in Malaysia ...
I almost forgotten when you leave us ..and went to England .. 4 years ?? or .. 5 years ??? ago ..
For so long time .. we only communicate with webcam .. and phone ...
I so miss your hug ... when can I touch u again ... to feel your warm hands...
We doesn't talk much to each other... but we love each other...



What Is A Dad?

A dad is someone who
wants to catch you before you fall
but instead picks you up,
brushes you off,
and lets you try again.

A dad is someone who
wants to keep you from making mistakes
but instead lets you find your own way,
even though his heart breaks in silence
when you get hurt.

A dad is someone who
holds you when you cry,
scolds you when you break the rules,
shines with pride when you succeed,
and has faith in you even when you fail...




Father you gave me the greatest gift anyone could give another person, he believed in me.

I Love you dad!

( to my father , who so lonely working at oversea )

守护

Day after day ...
Since u appear in my life
there are some new habits in my lifestyle
I will do nothing in front of pc in certain time
coz I know u will appear
but not every time also that lucky
sometimes I will eat while fruit one

U told me u are a boring girl before...
U emo all the time..
U say that,
U are not that person I expected
&
Im not the person u expected*



I wonder who you r ?
U are the magic colour box ?



U are the angel from the heaven ?


Or u are the evil from the hell...

I lost the direction in the sky


I confuse , I afraid and I lack confident
when I read those negative comment.


this new land i never step in before,
I dunno what will happen after this...
izzit a sweet dream... or a bitter memory..
after communicate with my heart...

I KNOW
I will not get myself cause my heart so much MISERY
U are worthy me to do this
because you are the apple of my eye.


I dunno what will happen in the future,
But I only know the future is holding in my hand
Im same with others guy
but the different between me and them is
Im hope u will happy aside with me










*No matter how , No matter when , No matter where..
Im waiting to warm u up and cheer u up *

奇迹的邂逅

Last 4 months,
happen something that are never happen in my life before,
I never care about it,
but this thing keep grow up in my mind,
Im tough enough for anything,
but now I feel I have a weakness point,
when u happy,
I will feel the same,
when u sad,
I will feel unwell,
and feel blue,
when u happy,
the pink colour appear in my sky,
when u ignore me,
question marks start to appear in my eyes,
I dun wish to deny it,
but it really happen in my life,
my life full of colour,
pink, purple ,blue,
but all also come from you,
u are a magic colour box ?
I dunno,
I just noe,
what I wanna is this will cont appear in my sky even is ur blue,

I noe now not the right time,
and mayb u totally dunno me at all,
I wish I have the time to know more about u,
I wanna be friend with u,
but I wanna u noe,
I like u,
even its is not so deepy,
but I wish make it come true,


Even 1 minutes I also dun wish you feel unwell in the sight of me .

I noe ur wall is tall
and I will climb over it in one day.


I donno will you see this or not ,
since the feeling come from u
so I wanna u noe .

METHODs ~

candid during lecturer :P


The one at btm is my currently mathematics lecturer ..
His class... not boring .. but he teach till we all BLUR BLUR =.=

My lecturer got his 3 methods of teaching d ...

1st : Straight forward method
" This question is so straight forward !! nah nah see !! right class ?* skip to next example * "

2nd : One look method
" This question you one look then u know do already !! yes or no class ? * skip to next example * "

3rd : Frap method
" This solution you start like this ... and then FRAP !!! u got the answer here. easy or not class? * skip to next example * "

Well .. today lecture class ... can say understand 50 -50 gua ... wu liao then snap pic LOL ..

The lecturer actually is a nice guy ... only that we are too stupid to him mayb :P
well he said before ... " nowadays kid are not so smart .. y ? .. because u all eat too many meat . " HAHAHAHAHAHa true ? or false ...?

he always say .. I LOVE YOU ALL at the end of his lecturer =) sweet~~



This sems math will ....GG
and i GtG =)

G.A.T.H.E.R

It has been long time ...
Yesterday was fun =)
You all are so friendly and nice ~~
Really enjoying the moment so much ^^

Well the waiter and waitress is so funny that day ... playing with us together .. like we know each other haha .. girls power to make the environment warm ^^

p/s : To Kim and Hui Xin HAVE fun study OVERSEA YAY !



Going to Ultimate Group Power final today at stadium negara =D its LIVE show at channel 8tv tonight.
Dress code is RED to support my cousin friend " Ya Tou " and also BBT from taiwan ;)

GTG ciaoz ~

O.M.G ~

Today .. on da way to college ...
I was day dreaming while driving ...
The road.. is like a never ending road to college and it has been few years using the road ...I know every corner and every hole on the road I even know where is the place normally have set with road block and speed trap ..* seriously =D* mayb next time I try to close my eye see if i manage to reach the destination LOL ..

Well... what happen ?
day dreaming thinking of something sweet ... suddenly there is a traffic far from my sight ..
and there is something flashing in my mind ... * OH shit ! * road block ....
Si liao la ... I was speeding ...

HAHA ? Our policeman really efficiency 1st sentence from his mouth is " Bang apasal pandu laju berapa mau bayar ? " 2nd sentence is .. " OK letak bawah IC "
3rd sentence ... " Selamat memandu ya !" =.=




Goin to my friend farewell party later .. one by one they going oversea ... when will be my turn lea ? .. :P if nothing suck happens .. I think 1 n half year gua haha.. Mechanical Engineering really wasting me alot of time ~~


GtG .. gonna prepare for the party ..
BUBAI ~

Outing~

So tired today =)
wake up early morning prepare things that needed for the PTPTN loan ...
then ... attend class and class and another class LOL .....

yea after that I fetch them to go for our movie Terminator 4 ^^

having dinner at Sentul with you all ... chit chat there till 8 pm ~~~ and straight go to pavilion =)
window shopping awhile .... and that place really ... good to see not to buy ...LOL

the movie ends around 12 am d .... then we donno how to back to our parking place .....awwwwww
we go to B section instead of D section LOL ! yuan wang !.... walk whole carpark ..
and suddenly remember what my friend say when I park that place earlier * nah later remember this white colour myvi when we back here * well ... the myvi really not there when we find my car LOL ! laughing laughing ...

fetch them 1 by 1 ... wait till they safetly went into their house only I leave them ^^ if not i bu fang xin d ... nowadays those people crazy d ... this rob that rob ~~

going to bed now lo
NITEZ =)

Moving Forward ~

After 1 year experience from working ....

This week on Monday(25/5/09)... started my new semester in college again...
what to say ... ? Same environment , same block , same Lecture hall , same grass, same smell , same staff and same lecturer .

But ... felt very lonely ... because all of them in my course are new to me ... knows no one ...

Well as least still got you YEAP =) yay we at same group .. !~ 1st time in 3 years lol

Flashing back to three years ago ...
my spm result was stinkin ... why did i choose this course... engineering .. ??
so tough ... full of mathematics !!!! and i hate it ... my lecturer told me ... Mathematics is just a reference it is nothing to do with your future working .... but it is compulsory to take Mathematics until lvl 8 during your course ... * means u finish the world add math, further more is specialist liao*
Well 6 mathematics down ... 2 to go ... and the lecturer for Mathematics this sems SEEE BEHHH LANNNN CIII !! the face combo with his talking style really be ta han !

The course... from stranger become my ambition ... why ? mayb just fall in love ? or i have no choice to change it now ... haha no choice but to love my course ... well I am still fine ... but now gonna study REAL HARD ! .... hopefully it goes like what my previos lecturer Mr Johnny told me ... Study Hard Play Hard !

My life will back to ... assignment and lab report .... =( OTAKU ?
(!!>o< ) NOooooooOOOoooOOooo !!! I cant sit still de la ....



btw .. will outing with friends tml =D watch Terminator 4 ~~ the ticket book ledi by my friend with credit card .. so comfirm la got place... no idea how good or bad was the movie .. ^^
well ... enjoy 1st at early of the sems bah ..next time might have no time d .. appreciate every free moment now .

To all my friend which still in secondary school include my blogger friends !!
HAPPY HOLIDAY THIS SATURDAY !!!!
Dont waste it stay at home a !

keep in touch ya !~




hehe
ciaoz ~

Yam Yam Yam ~

19/5/09

Fetch my friend to pudu ... sending him back to Singapore... sad ... next two month will have no holidays LOL ....

Went to lowyat before this ... loon wanna buy phone memory card... his phone kena rompak before this.... and his church friends share money to buy a new 1 for him ... so lovely =)

after that we went to Borders at Time Square to buy thank you card around 10 cards he brought ...
and I bought a book there :D



Night ....
Friends come Kepong find me yam chah .. ask me think where to Yam .... headache with this kind of question lea ... LOL
I ask them go Honeymoon la ~~~
Honeymoon ???? they ask
Then I led them go ~~~ nearby only ma taman rimbunan there hehe :P


I think it is better than " Tong Sui Gor Gor " at metro prima ~

Then we go to desapark city playground .. chat chat chat till 12.30am
and went to eat BKT for supper .... 3 people eat 1 person de meal ...;) just wanna drink some hot soup nia lol

b home sleep after that .. zzzzzz

21/5/09
Today .. my phone never rings ... why har ... ??
Yuan lai my HP cannot recieve and call or sms ... not only that... i cant even dail or send sms ... DAMM
I thought is my phone problem ... but after I swap my sim card with my sister ... huh .. miracle or what.. I can use my sim card again ... no problem at all ... same to my sister... what to do .. temporaly use 1st lor ... no phone who will survive.... I will swap it back soon ;)

Well .. after that... I go find my friend at Desa Petaling nearby corner just drink orange juices and eat few pieces of chee cheong fen ~ yea... that mamak got sell Chee Cheong Fen .. LOL

Its around 11 pm jo i think ...my friend seen like alot " xin xi " diam diam de ... like no mood ... he say wanna go " zou zou " so i ok lor ... I told him to go KLIA wan ? he without hestitate and say ok ! alot road to there... we try new road to there ~

we reach there finally .... we go to the place special for visitors to view the aeroplane depart and arrive ... watching them to take off and arrive one by one .... chit chat alot there ... that place only two of us ... so silent & peace ~~~ we love it ... do we have the opportunite to work at airport ???? haha mayb =) ? or not ? we donno ..Although he didnt tell me what happen to him and why so sian ... mayb the time havent come bah ... he dont feel wanna talk yet.. well nvm accompany him is the best choice bah .... Be happy ya boy ~~ everything can settle ... and you can do it de .. or mayb I think too much ... haha

just take some pic with my sister phone ... LOL so low quality ;)




Reach home around 2.30am bah ...
and terus sleep ZZzzzzz ~